A Short Status Update
For a while now I’ve been fighting exhaustion, but instead of getting better it actually got worse. It’s like I live inside my head, but I cannot take on all these worries and (potential) problems, frustrations, and anxieties. I keep trying to please others and am just loading more and more pressure onto my own shoulders.
I mean, I do have pretty awesome shoulders, but still. Too much weight.
I’ve seen a doctor, she’s taken some blood and given me a prescription for melatonin, hoping it’ll help me fall asleep (you’d think that would be easy if you’re as tired as me, but nooo!).
Anyway, I am not myself. It feels so awful having to say this out loud, admitting you’re not fine, but it’s also liberating. This is the first step in becoming healthy and happy again :)
And, as a good friend of mine said it: “You need to stop making decisions that are, firstly, good for others and start making decisions that are good for you!”
I hope you’ll all have a happy week, with not too many worries, and a lot of good moments with great friends like the one who woke me up :)